Yesterday

This song is dedicated to my father who unfortunately passed away from ALS (Lou Gehrig's Disease). I love you and miss you Dad.

Yesterday

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Yesterday Time feels like it’s going by so quickly Even when the day goes by we remember everything from the other day Oh, I believe in Yesterday

It feels like it happened so quick Saying goodbye to someone who never did anything bad or terrible and shit I wish I could rewind the clocks just to hear your voice Maybe even take the time out of my day with you so we can rejoice On everything that we used to do together I was your first born and life with you felt like forever The long car rides, the late nights picking up Mom or my sister The fun nights, the great times when we got to spend time together Those are the memories I want to last forever The days where we went outside and threw a ball around Or even when we watched wrestling for hours in the evening to midnight I want to go back to those times where I could hear your voice again All of that seems impossible without feeling heartbreak Give me something God, give me a sign Or give me a chance with him one more time Take me back to Yesterday so I can never come back to this life again

Yesterday All my troubles seemed so far away Now it looks like as though they are here to stay Oh, I believe in Yesterday Yesterday

I see my past life with you and I celebrate Time goes on but the healing process takes time (And it hurts in the same way) Oh, I believe in Yesterday

Remember all of the good moments All of the moments we used to share with you Like every single second of every Barbeque Every time we drive to different places To every time you drove us and picked us up from the train stations At 11 am to 2 at night You were always there for us, 24 hours a day and 7 days a week Being a father was your favorite job And being there for us was something I will never forget

I will never forget the amount of times you fixed something on the block Whether it was a neighbor’s bike or fixing up one of our scooters Making sure the sidewalk was clear during the heavy snow storms You made sure we were all taken care of from morning to night And I like to look back at those memories randomly in the middle of the night You were a hard working father, a great fucking neighbor and a loving husband You always made sure we had what we needed A place for the dogs to play or a house for people to stay Everyone loved you and never had anything bad to say Please God make me understand why you took him out this way What made him deserve this pain that was given within What did he ever do to deserve this hardship we lived with It didn’t last long but it still destroyed what he wanted to be So please tell me why did we have to say goodbye like this

Yesterday All my troubles seemed so far away Now it looks like as though they are here to stay Oh, I believe in Yesterday Yesterday I see my past life with you and I celebrate Time goes on but the healing process takes time (And it hurts in the same way) Oh, I believe in Yesterday I close my eyes and I see you still alive with me Every time I look at your spot on the couch I keep thinking of you on it sleeping there With Zoey in between your legs or laying next to you like the good girl she is

With some random car show on the T.V screen or a very bad movie on TNT I keep asking myself when is Dad coming back from work at 5 in the afternoon But then I realize that was only during the Better Days I miss hearing your Donald Duck impression I miss hearing you call my name randomly for something silly I miss seeing you grilling Sunday nights Or preparing the meals for later on in the week or day I can’t believe you won’t be here to see me continue to grow up Cause life without a father is going to feel so weird It feels like Yesterday that you were able to do anything Those became memories and the sickness became your new life you were living I changed mentally from it all and started to feel anger and pain Something I haven’t felt since I lost my heart and felt my mental health go insane It’s hard to say goodbye to you because I never wanted too I wasn’t ready for this moment to actually come true I said I was prepared for the endgame but it was all I lie and I began to fall I began to hurt I began to feel all this anger striking my brain Everything I loved about him was deteriorating He was losing his use of his muscles and couldn’t talk at all He couldn’t cook anymore He couldn’t walk his dog He wasn’t able to eat all the food he loved He couldn’t watch his daughter graduate and walk across the stage He wasn’t able to see future moments in life that a father should be there for These memories are going to live on but one day fade away Just like his life, they will all feel alive Yesterday I wish I could go back in time and shield his life from this disease I wish I could go back in time and spend every waking minute with him Let him do whatever he wanted to do Watch Nascar and wrestling and every Yankee game Cook chicken and ribs and prepare his salsa recipe Play Pink Floyd and every 80’s Hard Rock song that we heard in the long car rides Take me back to the moments that meant the most to me Like taking me to the Yankee game just a month after we lost his mother We stayed all night because there was a rain delay The Yankees walked it off in the bottom of the 9th and we didn’t get home till 2 o clock at night It was one of my fondest memories with him cause he loved taking me to the games He was there coaching me in little league in my final year Helping me pitch better each game and being there to watch me succeed Taking us to Disney World and riding all the rides together From Expedition Everest to the Hollywood Tower of Terror My Father was always there for us and always made sure we were happy But also the moments where he was trying to teach us to become better people Like teaching me to get a job and the responsibilities of getting experiences He made me the man I am today, but yet I’m so scared Cause I know I will never be as great of a man like he was, never in a million years But I know he will be proud of me for everything I do and continue to be

Yesterday All my troubles seemed so far away Now it looks like as though they are here to stay Oh, I believe in Yesterday Yesterday I see my past life with you and I celebrate Time goes on but the healing process takes time (And it hurts in the same way) Oh, I believe in Yesterday

Yesterday Time feels like it’s going by so quickly Even when the day goes by we remember everything from the other day Oh, I believe in Yesterday