Better Days
Waking up every day, seems more like a choice without a reason Wishing I would still be asleep, living my life just dreaming Reality hits hard and feels hard to fight, one day I will be winning Believing that life will pass by, without my life feeling defeated Cause I keep standing, walking on my two feet Hoping that someday I will rise up and win for once Praying that someone will tell me not to give up That will be the day, but until then I wake up and see him giving up
We used to do everything together, those were the Better Days We used to watch Nascar and play catch, those were the Better Days Getting pizza after a fun day driving around, those were days I wish would stick around Twenty Six years of learning to be a better man, hoping and wishing to be like him Days go by and I keep asking myself why Heart can’t take this pressure, I just want to die Can we please press rewind, can we please relive those great nights I wish I could relive them all, back in those Better Days
I remember the first time seeing him crying, Grandpa died that day Now all I see is myself crying, cause my strength is fading away Long nights driving around picking up my sister Even those long days trying to find the right tools to fix something Those memories I shared with you will continue on Like a old show just showing re-runs I swallowed my pride and continue to stand tall Hold my head up high but soon begin to fall Watching me grow was a big accomplishment Watching him become something he never wished for That was something he was not looking forward too But now we keep wishing that life will be like those Better Days
He used to take me to my games, those were the Better Days He used to drive fast with me in the car, those were the Better Days We used to go to the ball games We used to watch wrestling every week, especially on Mondays Now this all feels like memories fading away in my brain But I try to keep them locked in so they don’t turn to grey Man I wish I can turn back the clock and relive it all Back in those Better Days
Will he be there to see her graduate
Will he be there to see the wedding of me and my soulmate
Will he be there to see his first grandchild
Will he be there to see me buy my first home
I sometimes wish I wouldn’t cry I sometimes hope that this is the dream I have been living in I wonder if I will live life like this again Will she be okay without him I watched a man become strong and capable of doing everything To watching him lose the ability to do anything I lost my heart back in 2017 And I’m losing my blood everyday How can a man lose the person he needs to look up to A hero he loves and always goes to How can a girl lose her favorite person How can a wife lose her husband like this I wish I could take it all away I wish I could relive those Better Days
We used to pretend to wrestle every weekend, those were the Better Days He used to cook for us every night, those were the Better Days We used to drive from Brooklyn to Manhattan, those were the Better Days He used to pick us up from school when he wasn’t at work, those were the Better Days I stayed up all night waiting for him to come home Now I just want to come home and see him the way he used to be I wish I could relive those Better Days I wish I could go back to those Better Days
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